Okay, so this time I've got the best reason for not writing: any free time I have will heretofore be spent with my new boyfriend coming up with all crazy shit. We should be writing it down but we're not...yet. Stay tuned for a dual effort of creative genius and rantings beyond your wildest dream.
Too much?
Okay so this whole blog is(was) about trying to get Vancouverites to smile more. On where I have free reign (cause nobody can stop me, I mean, I'm here, alone, writing, tough shit, too bad for Jew) to criticize all I'm witnessing. But lately, and here's the rub (literally), I've got nothing to complain about. I should just log off this thing once and for all and, I swear, if I weren't so narcissistic I probably would.
Anywhooooooo,
All along it was me, hanging within myself, self-deprecating shit, hanging on to faint traces of optimistism to make it to the next day, and walking the streets with dog looking for some hint of hope. So, looking, with such vehemence, can turn people off. But I did all right and all of it, all of it brought me here. Awesome. Sure I lack motivation to work or do anything other than have fun but that ain't so bad. Motivation's overrated. Okay, back to it - so I was projecting what I could when I could and getting back what I put out. Got it. So textbook.
Now, because I am connected and increasingly connecting to said man (or moy - man-boy - from here on in to be referred to as Moishe) I am not looking towards others for happiness. I am happy. Like really fucking happy. Right now. Now, I know that tomorrow or the next day I may not be as happy as I am right now but maybe I will. This time I have a chance at continual happiness. I can't go wrong: best lovin' ever coupled with friggin' awesome conversation and laughter. Pulllleaaaase.
This isn't luck - I truly deserve this. I know it's new but it feels different...human, raw, committed. We'll see - says the side of me whose always been disappointed. But it's okay to listen to her a bit because yes, we'll see, and as Mags says, if you wanna see the person the next day you'll continue to see them. So, that's where I will place it and will continue to open my heart and observe myself in such a state of bliss. Guess everyone else can see it too. Nice. That should get'em smiling.
Oh, and one more thing - and the point of the title of this post is that I moved to the east - to wonderful Commercial Drive, where I've already made friends and there's a dog park across the bloody street. People smile more readily over here. So you see, the lack of Vancouver smiles was about location and my personal happiness. Now that I'm in a relationship and living in a hip area people are, wait for it, smiling more.
How lucky is that?
