To Grab the Last Brownie or Not? That is the question.

Happiness is created from within.  We are the captains of our fate  and the creators of our fulfillment.  The more negative traits that we  “sacrifice” within ourselves, the more we are able to manifest  fulfillment. Today, go against one aspect  of your selfish nature. -A Kabbalistic Daily Message.   Sounds so simple...yet not.  How often do we think  about ourselves first?  Ummm... mostly always.   When doing so, like in a line up, a car lane, an office  meeting, a buffet we are simply putting ourselves first  at the expense of others.  Not always, but a lot - it's our  inherent nature.  Notice it.  Does it help you live in  the moment?  Or, does it just create more space between  yourself and others?  More importantly, does it  bring you happiness?   Okay, I gotta admit - sometimes when I do  manage to get the last brownie on the desert tray I fully enjoy the moment - I mean, like happier  than I've ever been in my life, but then what happens?  I become a tad uncomfortable and wonder why I am  always trying to get what I want and don't always think  that others may want it too.  Well, now I try to stop,  restrict for a second or two, and then grab the brownie  anyways cause Fuck it, they're friggin' awesome!   No, no - I truly question my motives when attempting  to get what I want and if anything it just makes me  more aware of others and how I can be a bit better  to others.  I don't know, worth a try, especially if it  brings some form of peace.  And peace leads to  happiness, right?  Om.